Afterall, you are still the one i wanted to talk to. After all this time when we didnt contact each other, i thought things were fine, everything settled down.

So many event clashing, making it hard for us to even have a dinner. You are busy with your upcoming exams, i have my own plans and left with about 2 weeks odd before enlist. I dunno if there will still be time for us to meet.

Having to start chatting a little this few days. Suddenly, this very fierce fb status appeared by you. Got the feeling, that i'm one of them u are referring to. I'm trying to read our recent msges.. i admit, maybe i was really like what you described. Not sure if its the way i phrase or wat. But I may have changed, maybe into someone worse or someone that wasnt as good as you think i am. I'm feel sorry if you felt that way..really. But honestly, i'm dont want to be hated by you and still be your good friend like before. :/

Ya, i had be very honest to you all the while. Because thats what i thought i should do if i treated one as my very true friend. Never dared to ask anything in return, just hope you will do the same, not hide things from you be it good or bad. It just came naturally somehow. Even if i did something wrong, i wont hold back my pride and will apologise to hope for forgiveness. That is the least i can do i guess.

Having thoughts about my life. It was sucky, feeling damn down. Had 2 friends who came asking what happened. A moment of feeling damn frustrated, i pushed them away asking them not to bother about me. You know what, in my mind, all my thoughts and stuff i only wanted to share with you.

Everytime when i go for a walk, i always see so many couples together. Till now, i still thought that how great if we were to be together. Before i wanted to confess, i told myself that this should be my first and last r/s, and i will make you happy and special. All my wishful thinkings :(

But on the other hand, lucky you didnt agree, lucky you didnt had any feelings for me. Perhaps i wasn't really as good as what you think i was when we were still best friends. And stupid me, thinking we can be together when in the first place, i dont even fit to be a boyfriend. A girl like you should deserve someone better, someone more understanding, someone who can really make you laugh, smile, happy and special..

Need to drop all this stupid things, when we cant even talk like normal friends. There is hell lot of personal thoughts in all the older posts. To be frank, everytime when i type out all this, i will thinking of the old us and compare with the current situation. And i feel damn damn sad.

I always wanted to ask you these 3 things about us.
1) one thing you regret
2) one thing you miss
3) one thing you wish/hope for