Feeling happy this few days, but deep inside something is just missing. Maybe i was too used to share my happiness with you last time. Suddenly when you are not around, it feels weird. But oh well, so far i'm still coping well i guess. I should just smile more often and life would be better.

Dunno why, something stuck me just now. I hope you are doing well too. Gd thing is you don't really need to depend on others anymore. But there's always 2 directions to everything. Suddenly rmb when i ask u 'how had u been this few days?'. U replied 'same, no diff'. It just makes me feel that whether if i'm around or not, it doesn't make any difference to you. Lol..

Sometimes i try very hard to make myself believe that maybe its good to be this way. There's this saying, when u gain something, you lose something as well. If i'm not wrong, when we got close, you drifted apart from your 2 good friends sharon and derek. But somehow i think things had turned around? Looks like you had been in contact with them alot recently. And afterall, i guess i shouldn't be around in the very first place right? Till now, i still feel a little guilty for your breakup. Surely during that time when we were too close, derek felt at least a little insecure. And i havent apologise yet after so long too.