[Overdue: Supposed to be posted on 16th Sep]

It was the zd jersey presentation day. In my mind, i thought it was sort of a formal thing where all players from zd can come for the team dinner then after that captains will present the jersey to the players one by one. I was wrong. Kinda stupid to be there actually. I rushed down from work and reached there at 830, still got people havent reach when the presentation starts at 8. And all i did was arranging the jersey nicely by numbers. Then i call out the names, they come and take. Its like teacher giving out exam papers -.- if thats the case, must as well just give on sat itself. Dun see anything special in it. Sorry if i expect too much and not flexible, but i tot it shouldn't be that way :/

Had been working with derek and sharon about suo stuff. Always finding myself stuck in the middle. I can discuss sharon abt one thing, and derek abt another thing at the same time. And sharon is complaining about his style of settling stuff. About the gifts for foreign teams. If i didnt ask derek still need to buy, he wouldnt tell me not to get it and i will waste my $20 on stupid stuff. About the suo fee. Have to pay for the whole team first. $2100, i'm freaking broke now.

Got so many things to inside me and the first person i think of sharing it with is still you. But i realized, i cant. I used to just tell u randomly without having to think twice. Got this feeling that i'm disturbing you. Correct me if i'm wrong. i wish i can still relate to you freely like before, when i'm facing problems or i feel very stress in my life. But now i can only rant at this blog, and not sure if u are reading it too. Perhaps i'm not trying to tell you how bad my life is. Just wanna update you with the things i do through blogpost since we dont text anymore..